Hello Lovely! I hope you are doing so well. Today I want to share an epiphany with you!
It came at a time when I was looking back at old photos of myself; and the way my body used to look. You see; I was VERY physically fit… but I was overworking my body. And I refused to address any emotions or feelings I had. Basically, I was starving my body of nutrients and busying myself with work to the point of exhaustion. It wasn’t intentionally, mind you! I was working at a restaurant 6 days a week; which involved LOTS OF WALKING. And because it was a busy restaurant, and I rarely had time to sit down and eat. Sometimes I’d bring food with me; but it was never much. So, I’d snack on french fries and then when I got home, I’d treat myself to a chocolate bar because I felt I deserved it! I smoked weed every day, from the time I woke up until I went to bed and never bothered to reflect on WHY I felt the need to do that. I didn’t have a car, so I walked EVERYWHERE. I’m talking over 30,000 steps a day type walking. To be honest, I generally thought I was pretty healthy! I did yoga every day, and went for hikes with my friends.
When I left Vancouver to go travel; I didn’t give much thought to the exercise I was doing because I was always doing some sort of tour visiting temples; or spending time at the beach. I didn’t think much about my diet either… I just ate whatever cheap food I could get at the market or the food stalls on every busy street! I wasn’t smoking weed for the first 3 months because I was too busy meeting new people and drinking almost daily. It was super-hot ALL THE TIME so I ate very little; and I thought drinking loads of water instantly meant I was being ‘healthy’. I even attended a couple yoga classes! (Literally 2 yoga classes in like 8 months; who was I kidding!)
It was only after I got to London and I slowed my lifestyle down; that I began to look at my lifestyle as a whole… and that’s when everything caught up with me. I started to resent my body because it didn’t look the way it used to; and although I was now progressing with my spiritual path – I felt so depleted about my outward appearance. My clothes that I wore in back home didn’t fit anymore; and I couldn’t appreciate that my body was FINALLY able to rest. It’s been a very long journey accepting my body for the way it looks now; and that’s not saying that there was anything wrong with it in the first place! Quite the opposite actually; it was my perspective that needed changing.
The way that I’ve been able to switch my perspective is through processes that help me release those negative emotions I had been holding onto for so long! I practice forgiveness rituals, and journaling. I use affirmations daily, eat nutritious food and make sure I’m getting enough rest. I choose to move my body MINDFULLY, and I’ve donated those clothes that don’t fit me, so I can fully embrace that I’m not the person who mistreats her body anymore. I also now focus on healing all of my Chakras and utilizing many meditation styles, including a very powerful Ho’oponopono method (I’ll share more about that method in the future!)
The point is, now I look back at those photos and I remember how much my poor feet throbbed when I would get home from work. I remember my poor wrists and my aching back; overworked and neglected. Now I look at those old photos and I send love to that version of myself. She needs it. Now I’m SO GRATEFUL for the body I have.
I’m back to practicing yoga everyday again; but you can be sure my practice feels entirely different. Now I move my body to show gratitude for what it can do for me; and to stretch the muscles that show up for me constantly EVERY DAY. I no longer work my poor body to the point of exhaustion and neglect my soul.
I make it a priority to practice meditations and get to know myself on a deeper soul level. Does that mean I was wrong for the way I was behaving before? I don’t look at it that way. I think that version of me was hurting; and trying to find acceptance in the only way that she knew how. I see the lessons I learnt and appreciate my growth. I still have many fond memories of the times I spent hiking the mountains with my friends; or dancing the night away; but I’m a completely different person now.
I’ve had a metamorphosis.
I hope my words and my journey helps you in some way lovely; I feel so blessed to have a space where I can share my experience with you.
Until next week; I’m sending you so much love and well wishes; always.
Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey;
ps. Part of loving my self means practicing meditation; connecting my mind body and spirit. Do you practice meditation? If you’re interested there is still time to sign up for this weekends Chakra Meditation! Join us as we gather together to rebalance our energy centres and achieve deeper healing.
PSA: I host a Live Meditation on the last Sunday of every month! Next Meditation is: May 23rd!
PS. If you love all things Chakras; be sure to join my Live Monthly Mediation! I host a live group meditation for deep healing and transformation on the last Sunday of every month (8pmGMT/12pmPST). I would LOVE for you to join us! Come chant the Chakra Mantras with us and feel your energies reset and recharge.
Simply click the link below to reserve your seat.
This is the perfect event for anyone who is looking for connection and a sacred space to gather. We will be coming together and chanting the different mantras for each Chakra to rebalance our energies, using one of my favourite meditation tracks by Edo &Jo! It doesn’t matter if you are someone who is brand new to meditation; or someone who practices everyday..
you WILL receive a deeper level of healing when we bring our energies together ❤
All you have to do to join us is reserve your seat!